Ramblings

I'm sorry I haven't blogged in a long time. I'm having quite the difficulties keeping up with my nursing assignments. They tell us that the load really lightens up once we start clinicals. Only one week away!!
Well, I didn't go to class today becasuse I am sick. I tried staying up late last night to finish a paper but I didn't get past the first page and went to bed at 1:00. I didn't even get my paper finished and I wake up sick!! Darnit! It's like the end of last year all over again! Now I have to finish that paper, start another one that is due tomorrow, and finish another assignment that is due tomorrow. Hmm... I wonder what time I'm getting to bed tonight.... This is the "week of hell" for the nursing students and I can't even make it to class... Why, Lord? Did you not think that nursing school was hard enough as it is? It's as if I have a part time job with all the extra sleep I need right now. With being sick this morning I missed two pill dosages, too.
I'm sick of beating around the bush when people ask me what's wrong. I've only told a couple of my closest friends the source for all these symptoms. I am only scared about how the nursing department would react because I'm not going about treating the problem in the "typical", "modern medical" way. You know what? I don't trust modern medicine ESPECIALLY when it comes to this field in particular. Research on diagnosis and treatment for modern medicine especially in this field is dictated by the FDA. The FDA has known for nearly 50 years the real source of the problem and they keep researching and treating it like it is something else. The FDA is not working in the interest of the patient, they are working in the interest of their pocketbooks!
That is something I find very interesting about God calling me to this field. One of the major reasons why I was never interested in the medical field especially as I was growing up is because I have seen more and more how the modern medical field is so intent on treating people's symptoms and not the root of the problem. Kids these days are taught that rhetoric from elementary school. "You have a headache? Oh, I'm sorry. Here's an Advil." Instead of "maybe you should not have stayed up so late last night" or "then you should go to bed and rest". You need to teach people how to take care of their bodies while they do what they love instead of teaching them how to ignore their bodies by masking the signs of a problem so they can go on and do whatever they want; abusing their God-given, miraculous, functional bodies by not exercising, eating a terrible diet, using drugs (prescription and non), and being sleep deprived, to name a few.
Don't worry. I'll make it public in a couple of weeks at the most. I just have to figure out when would be the best time to let the nursing department know. Perhaps they will start probing more now that I actually missed a class. My philosophy for the last couple of years is to always be truthful to a direct question. When my friends have asked me about my symptoms, I tell them about my symptoms. If someone actually asks me if I know what the root of the problem is, I just tell them that I'd rather not talk about it and they have all been great and left it at that. For the nursing department...that's not going to cut it. I rather wish that they would start probing so I don't have this nagging secret all the time.